A visit

26/6/09

I decided to visit my grandma in the afternoon.
She is sick. Took my umbrella, I walked to her house which is not far from mine. My Joon aunt taking care of her. She was sitting on the floor of her room. I walked to her and said "po". Yes, as my mum said, she's thin. So sad to see her like this, I tried to control my feeling, not to cry in front of her. I feel so sorry to her. She's so sick, I can't help her.

The first thing that "Po" asked me was have u taken ur lunch. I said: Yes. What did u eat? I answered banana. She said: Full meh. I said: OK. "Po" told me don't eat so few, become thinner lor. I was so sad to hear that, she's so thin now. "Po" asked me a lot on my studies. Ask me where to study and give me some advice. My mum did tell her about my studies so "po" talked about that.

Joon aunt brought her a bowl of chinese medicine. "Po' have to drink it. It's v bitter cos "Po" showed the expression on her face. I hope the medicine worked on her. God bless her.

Then, "Po" have to practice 国林功 guided by Joon. "Po" told me: now have to learn walking like 3 yr old kid. I knew it's hard to her since she's so weak. "Po" just learned yesterday. Hope this help to her. I sat by the side watching "Po" doing. It took around 1 hour. Didn't rest. She is not allowed to talk while practicing. Joon gave command. I saw "Po" showing 2 fingers to Joon. Joon nodded and Joon thought "Po" trying to say 10min to go for the 1st round. I watched every step "Po" taking. So small, so weak, so slow. It's so sad to see this.

After 10mins, 2nd round. I saw "Po" sometimes not so stable, Joon at the side helping her.
As soon as this finished. "Po" started talking. The 1st things "Po" said to Joon was: why dont give me rest a while? I showed you 2 fingers meaning give me 10 min rest.You are taking my life, I'm so tired. Joon said: I thought 10 min left for the 1st round. Why don't tell me you want to rest? "Po" said: You said can't talk while practicing. We all laughed. My "Po" is so funny. "Po" then kept talk about this. Joon said: enough la. It's not allowed to talk after practice also. Have to keep quiet for 15min. "Po" said: why don't tell me earlier? "Po" have been talking non stop since she finished the practice.

I found a book on the table and read. I found this phrase quite meaningful. 爱，是加法，乘法，是一种出路。恨，是减法，除法，是一种绝路。The stories in the book are quite meaningful. Love people around esp parents, no hatred. For couple, don't argue on the slightest matter, no hatred. To certain extent, it's difficult though.

Before I back to home, Joon fetch me to buy things nearby. She then fetch me back. "Po",you must be strong. You can finally defeat the sickness. May God bless you.

Another sleepless night

26/6/09

I thought I could sleep at 12am, so hurriedly said gn to my on9 fren and shut my pc and went to bed, but unfortunately my mind just can't shut down. Haiz, so I decided to on9 again just to make myself tired. Yueh Fang was on9 so chat with her. She was leaving on that night to sabah, so good luck to her. My friends 1 by 1 leaving to study. But me, what the hell am i doing here. My life is so empty, lost, nothing. So many things troubling me, gonna to be mad.

Soon around 1 something, I thought I was tired enough to go to bed. Again hurriedly shut pc down and sleep. Haiz, rolling on the bed, still couldn't sleep. Through the window, I saw lightning, I guessed it's gonna rain soon. Yes, as what I wished, it rained finally. It rained so heavily with thunderstorm. Yes! It's the best time to sleep. I love to sleep in such a stormy night with lightning and thunder. I've been longing for it so much. The lightning brightened up my room, I could hardly see every corner of it. Still , I couldn't sleep. Staring at the ceiling.

My mum came into my room to make sure no rain water coming in. I didn't call her, just pretending sleeping. Haiz, really cant sleep. The electricity of the upper floor shut down(as the circuit use to shut itself during heavy rain). The fan stopped and I was too lazy to go out to turn on the circuit. I couldn't do anything without electricity, can't on9. So, I opened my phone's inbox and reviewed those msg. Damn boring, lazy to read. Continued rolling on bed. Hope can sleep this time. No use. Can't sleep. I walked to my window and looked outside. I could feel the cold wind blowing. Then, went to bed again. Sometimes, I wonder what make me so brave to walk in my room in dark.

My mum came in 2nd time. Walked to the window again, make sure no rain dropped in. I could hardly see her. I tried to turn harder on my bed just to draw her attention to tell her that i'm not asleep yet. Lol. I think she didn't realize. She walked out of my room and locked my door. I thought she'll turn on the circuit. But I could hear her room's door locking. Haiz, why I don't ask her turn it on when she's in my room. Haiz. I walked to the window few times with no reason.

I still couldn't sleep. The rain was smaller now. I looked at the time in my phone, it's almost 4am. I still couldn't sleep. Finally, I couldn't stand anymore, boring and hot. So, I decided to turn the circuit on by myself. Hurriedly walked out of my room and turned it on. It wasn't that dark outside coz the lamppost on the street brightened up the hall.

I turn on my pc. But unfortunately no wireless was detected. Maybe coz the rain. Haiz. So, I decided to arrage my photo gallery since it's a mess. I heard my bro going toilet......His alarm rang. Time to wake up for school. Almost 6am. I still couldn't sleep. My mum wake up and came into my room. Asked me why you are not sleeping. I replied: I can't sleep. She said: Must take care of your health, don't damage your liver and kidney. Haiz...I really cant sleep.

At that moment, I was quite tired. So, went to bed. I think I was asleep.

The next day, I woke up at 11 something.

晴天霹雳

最近很烦，发生了很多事，为什么偏偏在这时候。
为什么？一个家原来是那么脆弱，为什么是我？
讨厌，厌倦，疲惫，我很累。
讨厌这样的日子，我讨厌他，我很恨他。
为了她，我得在你面前做戏。
我恨不得把他的面具拆下，告诉全天下，这辈子我无法原谅他。
天下乌鸦一般黑，没错。都是一样的。

对不起，我没常去看你。
你得了重病，我也很难过。
希望你早日康复，把病魔给打败。
妈每晚为了你哭了，她也为了很多事而烦，看了很心酸。

生命有时真的很脆弱。
难道这是命运的安排吗?

my new pet-Gor Zi

wat a cute cute thing....^.^

22-3-2009...sunday...my capture
early morning..mum suddenly woke me up...she said: an unknown creatures was at top of d door's pane...i 55弹起来..飞去看...it's a civet...still a baby...my dog rocky was barking at it...it's so cute bt i think it stayed up there 4 whole nite...din sleep...if it failed 2 clutch at d pane...it'll surely b my dogs' meal...

clearing bushes...

Haiz...it's habitat(d trees n bushes next 2 my house hav gone)..tat's y it came 2 my house...luckily it's smart enuf...if nt wat i found is a dead body...n luckily chose d rite house...hahaha

I hav 2 catch it n keep it b4 it ran away...it has lost...homeless...where else cn it go??

I hurriedly put on gloves so tat it cant bite me n took d big fish net 2 enclose it...i'll never let it go...hahaha...I 1 it as my pet...fed it wif some biscuit 2 tame it...i was wondering where 2 keep it...d toilet downstair...hahaha

wat u want?dun cum near.....

It 's stil v scare of ppl...keep hiding itself behind d toilet bowl...i stayed in toilet 4 few hours...playing wif it...fed it...I allowed it 2 crawl on my hand...it has v sharp nails...my hands full wif scratches...

I stared at it n it stared at me 2...我们两深情对望...i pretended sleeping n it really fell asleep jor...hahaha...tertipu adi...i think it's 2 tired...cute la man...It luk cute...but sometimes luk evil....esp whn it open it mouth showing it's teeth...it's quite fierce n once bite my finger...

I named it GOR ZI...cos..civet in chinese is 猓子狸(guo zhi li)so i named it gor zi...nice name...

It did escape...n v tot through d window...
Bt at nite it appeared in toilet again...huh...so geng meh..do magic...n v tot it bac through d windows...bt my dogs din bark at all...so geng meh?cn invisible....o my dog blind jor...

D next day early morning...my dogs barked at d drain...haiz...disturbed my slumber again...so annoying...it's nt in d toilet...it's in d drain outside...wif it's head looking out n it's body dipt inside d dirty drain water...i finally knew it escaped through d drain...v geng wor...it noe hw 2 open d cover of d drain n close bec d cover...so tat v dun suspect it escaped through d drain...真有脑啊！！

It stil traped inside drain cos cant out...once out sure die....
I cant do anything 2 help it out...my dogs blocked my way...kept barking n waiting at d drain...wat i cn do just wait it 2 bec...

Yeah...it finally bec...wet adi...i put tiles on d drain's cover...it cant escaped anymore...

I used wet cloth 2 clean it's fur...in d beginning...it quite scare n keep run away fr me...finally it trusted me n allowed me 2 clean it furs wif it...it lick my finger 2 as if help me 2 clean oso..haha...
-lao foong, sars is no more liao...n i dun think it's sars carriers...hahaha...n i wont free it at d moment cos it's still baby...it needs me...mummy...hahaha...

Sometimes it likes 2 chase my feet...dunno wat it 1...1 2 climb o bite.?...really no idea...i never let it come near my legs....

It has a v special smell...pandan leaf smell...gud smell bt i dun really like it...cos d smell 2 strong....

It's active at nite n sleep in d days...really a pig...i call it so loud bt stil cant wake it up...no response at all...just blink d eyes...seems懒得理我...

It gives colourful shit 2...eat wat thn out wat...eat papaya out papaya...eat banana out banana...eat oranges out oranges...all original colour 1 just diff shapes...hahah

It learned 2 jump v high n cn reached d windows adi...it nearly escaped again bt it make noice tat i manage 2 shut d windows b4 it escape....

I hope there's other civets come 2 my house so tat cn accompany gor zi...haha...
I'll free it whn i find suitable place 4 it...
at d moment gor zi is mine....

it smell d food....

moving near 4 d food...

start grabbing n pulling....

oh gosh...it's 2 powerful...grabbed d food away fr my hand....

start pulling again...



it succeeded n left a small piece in my hand....