Another sleepless night

26/6/09

I thought I could sleep at 12am, so hurriedly said gn to my on9 fren and shut my pc and went to bed, but unfortunately my mind just can't shut down. Haiz, so I decided to on9 again just to make myself tired. Yueh Fang was on9 so chat with her. She was leaving on that night to sabah, so good luck to her. My friends 1 by 1 leaving to study. But me, what the hell am i doing here. My life is so empty, lost, nothing. So many things troubling me, gonna to be mad.

Soon around 1 something, I thought I was tired enough to go to bed. Again hurriedly shut pc down and sleep. Haiz, rolling on the bed, still couldn't sleep. Through the window, I saw lightning, I guessed it's gonna rain soon. Yes, as what I wished, it rained finally. It rained so heavily with thunderstorm. Yes! It's the best time to sleep. I love to sleep in such a stormy night with lightning and thunder. I've been longing for it so much. The lightning brightened up my room, I could hardly see every corner of it. Still , I couldn't sleep. Staring at the ceiling.

My mum came into my room to make sure no rain water coming in. I didn't call her, just pretending sleeping. Haiz, really cant sleep. The electricity of the upper floor shut down(as the circuit use to shut itself during heavy rain). The fan stopped and I was too lazy to go out to turn on the circuit. I couldn't do anything without electricity, can't on9. So, I opened my phone's inbox and reviewed those msg. Damn boring, lazy to read. Continued rolling on bed. Hope can sleep this time. No use. Can't sleep. I walked to my window and looked outside. I could feel the cold wind blowing. Then, went to bed again. Sometimes, I wonder what make me so brave to walk in my room in dark.

My mum came in 2nd time. Walked to the window again, make sure no rain dropped in. I could hardly see her. I tried to turn harder on my bed just to draw her attention to tell her that i'm not asleep yet. Lol. I think she didn't realize. She walked out of my room and locked my door. I thought she'll turn on the circuit. But I could hear her room's door locking. Haiz, why I don't ask her turn it on when she's in my room. Haiz. I walked to the window few times with no reason.

I still couldn't sleep. The rain was smaller now. I looked at the time in my phone, it's almost 4am. I still couldn't sleep. Finally, I couldn't stand anymore, boring and hot. So, I decided to turn the circuit on by myself. Hurriedly walked out of my room and turned it on. It wasn't that dark outside coz the lamppost on the street brightened up the hall.

I turn on my pc. But unfortunately no wireless was detected. Maybe coz the rain. Haiz. So, I decided to arrage my photo gallery since it's a mess. I heard my bro going toilet......His alarm rang. Time to wake up for school. Almost 6am. I still couldn't sleep. My mum wake up and came into my room. Asked me why you are not sleeping. I replied: I can't sleep. She said: Must take care of your health, don't damage your liver and kidney. Haiz...I really cant sleep.

At that moment, I was quite tired. So, went to bed. I think I was asleep.

The next day, I woke up at 11 something.